ena_mavie

Today....

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 00:54:59 GMT

It was really boring woke up early and cleaned up the house a bit. Then I worked on some homework. Now I am off to a local jewelery group's open house. I ordered earrings from them at the street fair and get to pick them up. So that should make my day better or rather more interesting.

Cheers to a quiet Saturday.

SCARY SCARY

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 03:50:51 GMT

http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2009-09-29/8th-grade-sydney-boy-reported-for-making-death-note

The problem with Death Note! This is crazy scary!
This shows why anime is not just cartoons. With mature themes and violence, parents need to be more aware what they are letting their children watch! I do not think parents really understand what they are allowing their children to see.

You know...

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 05:43:23 GMT

It seems like everything is going to hell right now but I found a little silver lining that makes me smile. So all and all, cheers

Them bones them bones they walk around...

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 21:53:12 GMT

Time to walk to work. No clean shorts today which means pants. I hope I don't keel over. But how it goes.

Oh but why I love the show Bones... Flogging Molly was playing the background because it was on a characters stereo. SO COOL!!!

Cheers to the song in the subject being stuck in my head now.

All nighter.... again...

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 11:09:09 GMT

Haven't slept yet but... so happy. Homework is done. I had to do so much stuff yesterday I had no time to work in the homework I had. I feel like I am finally on schedule and things are going okay. I can feel the academic burn on my brain. So much... so little time. The next thing to tackle is my art history paper it is a short formal analysis paper (only one to two pages!!!) with a composition sketch. The hard is I have to see the art in person. But hey at least it is for an epic teacher. So woo here we go. Shower, pack then to the Thursday schedule.

As to how I am physically, I do feel kind of sick. Maybe Rasha made me sick through the phone... Alice always plotting something, isn't she? Also, tired... so tired. I am afraid I am going to find comfortable fabric this weekend and fall asleep on it. But lol anyways

Cheers to a good day!

Fencing

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 22:01:18 GMT

Woo I got back on the machine today! I got my ass kicked but so much fun! Two matches one 5-2 and the other 5-1. They are the really good kids so I will let it go. Well that isn't all true Jordan was very patient and helped me a lot today! He is secretly a god in fencing I tell you!! But Jon ripped through one of my shirts today while we were fencing. Time to buy a jacket! So here we go! TO THE INTERNET!!!

Rest in Peace Au Lait

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 09:12:51 GMT

You were a good little mouse. Despite the biting me, I still appreciate those all nighters when you would run and I would not feel alone. You will be very missed and I know you are in a better place now.

For those who don't know Au Lait was my pet mouse. She died last night/early morning. She has been having some trouble (looking sick and not being as active) so I knew it was coming but it is still sad to think that she is gone now. My desk is going to feel empty without the cage and another living creature right there.

Thank you...

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 04:29:10 GMT

I love my job if nothing else for my co-workers and boss. I know most people hate their bosses, dislike a coworker or two but tonight goes to show how lucky I really am. Two of them gave me so much advice on moving out and getting into college. Things to look into for money, things to expect and just so much. I think more than anything my boss gave me something no one has given me yet, someone in my position to an extend. Now not someone who is ready to move out but someone going into a four year university and has had siblings get it handed to them and them not. I speak of his wife. She seems to have been in a situation very similar to mine and that helps so much. I think I am going to ask my boss if he can set up a time for us to sit down and talk. I would really like to have so many questions answered. I admit I cried after I got in the car and safely out of earshot. I cried because I was so happy and again because I was so sad.
I cry a lot recently maybe because I am more open with my feelings or maybe because I am so tired recently either way I don't really care. This is the time my attitude has come to: for the move and short delving into extraneous purchases, aside from that screw it. I am trying to stay in contact but with my schedule I have been so bad about it and I am sorry. I will get better I hope but here it is an update.

Cheers to being kind of happy, kind of sad, and really random!

The First All Nighter

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 22:43:54 GMT

Woo second week of school and already procrastinated myself into an all-nighter. Luckily I am super interested in the subject manner. Also I am going to write about the manga series Otomen for an assignment. This should be awesome! But woo I am all excited for fencing tommorow! And the pool is finally done!!! I have been having to show up to Delta at 6:15am just to say I am her e because they were re-doing the pool. It is ready and beautiful. Monday and Wednesday morning are about to get a lot more interesting. Aside from that... nothing much time to go to work...

Cheers.

Being Busy seems to be my delgihtfully sour daily bread

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 06:13:41 GMT

So i am into my second week of school now... Sorry for being out of touch but as an excuse I present my weekly schedule...

Monday and Wednesday
4:30am- Wake up
4:30am- 5:15- Pack for the day
5:15am-5:30am- Free time but usually homework
5:30am- Leave the house
5:30am-6am- Drive to Stockton
6am-6:25am- Get ready for swim
6:30am-8am- Swimming Session
8am-8:25pm- Shower and get ready for other classes
8:30am-8:55am- Private piano time (because I am a music student I can get a small room to myself with a piano)
9am-10am- Piano class/continure private piano time
10am-11am- Critical Composition for English
11am-12pm- HIstory of Art from the 14th century to the twentieth century
12:05-12:45pm- Take care of any fencing club stuff I can
12:50pm-1:20pm- Drive home
1:30pm-3:30pm- House work
3:30pm-3:50pm- Walk to work
4pm-8pm- Work
8:15pm-Whenever- Homework.

Tuesday and Thursday
4:30am- Wake up
4:30am-5:30am- Get ready for school/pack everything for school
5:30am- Leave the house
5:30am-6am- Drive to Stockton
6am-6:25am- Walk to Class, get a good seat, and wait for it to start
6:30am-8am- Speech
8am-8:25pm- Get ready for fencing club (fencing time)
8:30am-10am- Fencing Club (Fencing time)
10am-10:10am- Clean up gym and change out of fencing clothes
10:15am-10:55am- Political side of Fencing Club Meeting!
11am-12:20pm- Race, Gender, and Class in Society
12:30pm-1:15pm- Take care of any Fencing Club Stuff
1:15pm-1:35pm- Drive Home
1:40pm-3:30pm- House work/Laundry
3:30pm-3:50pm- Walk to work
4pm-8pm- Work
8:15pm-Whenever- Homework.

Friday
4:30am- Wake up
4:30am-5am- Get Ready
5am-7am- Free time/Clean my room (not included in house work)
7am-7:30am- Drive to Delta
7:30am-8am- FInd parking (yes it may take a full half an hour)
Found a parking spot time-9am- Study session in Locke Lounge (ahh quiet. I am usually the only one there...)
9am-9:55am- Private Piano Time
10am-10:50am- Critical Composition for English
11am-12pm- HIstory of Art from the 14th century to the twentieth century
12:05-12:45pm- Take care of any fencing club stuff I can
12:50pm-1:20pm- Drive home
1:30pm-3:30pm- House work
3:30pm-3:50pm- Walk to work
4pm-8pm- Work
8:15pm-???- Social time/Personal reading time/Crash and burn

Saturday
6:30am- Wake up
6:30am-7am- Quick morning work out
7am-7:30am- Get Ready for work
7:30am-7:50am- Walk to work
8am-10am- Work
10:15am-10:30am- Walk home
10am-Whenever- Fit in homework, personal reading, writing, social time, gym, housework and any needed club activities

Sunday
6:30am- Wake up
6:30am-7am- Get Ready to go to gym
7am-10am- Gym
10am-Whenever- Fit in homework, personal reading, writing, social time, housework and any needed club activities

THEN DO IT ALL AGAIN!!!

Whew that looks bad. But, hey, might as well go out with a bang, right? I am enjoying myself though! Always busy, it is like an escape with no free time and no time to worry about the other stuff. I feel like a never stop but man oh man February is going to come like a well... the image that came to mind is in a Tale of Two Cities by Dickens when a noble in a carraige is speeding down the path and hits and kills a child. His head later ends up on a spear with other nobles on the side of the road as a warning. Though I am not sure if I am the child or the noble I know that time is the carriage. Just mine is not pulled by horses but invisible forces like fate and dedication. But, man oh man, I am... well I do not know what it is exactly but man am I ever what this feeling is.

Cheers to not knowing what you are feeling at the moment but being fascinated by knowing and being who you are..

A warm bubbly feeling with a hint of shoujo sparkles

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 04:16:18 GMT

My laptop is finally been declared dead. Apparently my Aim along with it so cheers to that. I have a new one it is enamavie215 so feel free to get a hold of me.

This is kind of off topic but hell it is my blog so just roll with it. Rasha, I don't if you read this or if anyone who does knows how I can get in contact with her but she changed her number and I would like to get a hold of her somehow. Well if you know a way let me know.

Aside from that I started school. Six classes plus being president of a club will make this semester go by very fast. It all looks as though it is coming together.

The most exciting thing by far is that I went shopping for the Seattle Move!!! I bought so much for so little. I know, I know so early but I am a planner. So, buying everything slowly makes the damage feel a little smaller financially and creates milestones of achievement. I bought a toaster, I think for some reason I am unusually proud of that, no idea why though. I have my list and everything that I am checking off as I go. If I have not officially announced come next February I will be moving to Seattle, WA. haha. I knew I was forgetting something major on here but this is for sure and I am so excited about it I am just... I guess it is that feeling you get after a long workout and sinking into a hot tub. A warm bubbly feeling with a hint of shoujo sparkles.

Cheers to that feeling!

On a lighter note!

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 19:01:36 GMT

So i just bought my books. Holy crap! So EXPENSIVE!!! But my dad made me laugh. We bought the books and then ten minutes later he calls...

Dad: What in God's name did you buy?
Me: Books.
Dad: Golden books?
Me: Yes, the kinds with diamond encrusted cover!
Dad: Did it come with a meal or something maybe a new car?
Me: Yes all gold and diamond encrusted.
Dad: Okay just checking. I'll talk to you later, bye.
Me: Bye.

Sometimes sarcasm is the best antitode for sticker shock.

School seems like it will be a lot of fun. Tons of classe but it will be awesome. Cheers to that.

A Potential Goodbye

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 03:38:40 GMT

So green teo with honey. Delicious right? NOT ANYMORE!!! I spilled it all over my laptop so crap. I am probably going to have to buy a new one if my dad can't find a solution that will remove the honey. How it goes though. If you are up for coming to Manteca next week let me know I am house sitting and have permission to have people over for a BBQ and stuff. So give me a call becasue who knows how frequently I can be on at this point.

Cheers to this emo kind of feeling...

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 05:34:31 GMT

So this week lots has gone on. Lost one of my jobs but everything should be okay in the long run a.k.a Monday. Then again I am not allowed to speak of anything more than that. I was feeling really antsy these past two weeks. I feel like I can't slow down and have started having some health problems or I think is a stabbing feeling over your heart bad? haha. My doctor sent me an email saying my CT Scan was negative so I am really concerned about what is wrong with me then. Who knows? Well my mom is nervous because I have always had an unstable heart. Seeing as I was not expected to make it as an infant due to that, my my am I nervous. At this point I can't do anything about just look forward. Also did you kknow getting incredible cold when you stop moving for five minutes is something to tell a doctor. I have to wear sweatshirts if I want to stay even some what comfortable inside.

Then Sunday my lord I nearly broke my phone. I got the results back from my tests and wanted to do something, anything and not one person picked up their phone who lives near me. I didn't have a car that could make it past Dublin if I nursed it so I was calling everyone in about the 30min (how long my car lasts) radius and not a pick up anywhere. I chucked my phone across the room while yelling FINE THEN!!! So not so could the stress made me feel tired. I have been trying not to exercise and just let my body recover but now I can't sit still and I usually handle stress by working out and can't do that (and my god has there been stress with work and home). I am just very confused with all this and am stuck at home with no one to socialize with I think I may be going crazy. Now I am not loosing weight, I mean I am no gaining bt still it feels like all my hard work hit a dead end, like I lost momentum. I guess I am frustrated with the way everything is going. Everywhere I turn some is kicking up dirt, that is if I am not kicking it up myself.

Cheers to this emo kind of feeling...

Hello, again.

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 05:33:50 GMT

So hmm the past while I have...

So why haven't I posted. I took a bad hit to the head a few weeks ago and then two Fridays ago I stood up to give the kids a set to swim and I fought to stay conscious for about 40seconds which was terrifying. I have had tests done and so far nothing but there is something wrong because the dizzyness is not going anywhere if anything is more frequent. I apologize but please bare with me. All in all though I am functioning and doing okay.

Fourth of July Weekend -
Dog sat for my neighbors that was a lot of fun. They have a great tv and I also got to use their pool! Fun fun fun! Plus the making $120 :3
Watched fireworks with Gwen and some other friends which was uddles of fun. We went back to the house I was house sitting for and watched some tv, ate cheesecake and enjoyed each others company which was so nice.
Sunday of that same weekend I saw Public Enemies which was awesome I had a moment when the cast walked into a bank in long wool coats and fedoras with tommies stashed. *drool*

Right now Schourder is on my bed trying to pretend he does not here Au Lait (my mouse) running on her wheel. I am typing this obviously and well that is it so...
Cheers to the mundane and a mental debate to get in the hot tub or go to sleep...

Since Saturday

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 05:09:11 GMT

Saturday: Was up at 4am to get ready for a meet. Arrived in Oakdale at 6am. Meet started at 8am and then ended at 8:45pm. Left at 9pm. Home by 10pm. Crashed and burned 10:00:30pm
Sunday: 12:30pm Saw Up for the second time and went out to lunch with some friends... I needed that.
Monday: Not bad until the night. 9:30pm Count 'em two toes broken and they still hurt.
Tuesday: Not bad until lessons. Dove into pool at 1:20pm and crashed into bottom head first. I feel very sore and have a lot of trouble focusing on anything. I have some form of damage I am sure.
Wednesday: NO injuries but my face is roasted from the sun. Sunscreen for sure tomorrow!

Conclusion: So help me God if one more person asks me how my week has been.

Forecast for the rest of the week: Slightly cloudy with a chance of injuries

Cheers to wanting to listen to Blame it on the Weatherman now!!!
Golden star to whoever can tell me the band that is by...

Well...

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 04:02:31 GMT

I am happy that I got my paycheck, so woohoo there! But hot damn! It is days like these that I want to delete my stupid Lj!!!

BLAH!

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 20:20:51 GMT

I have a lot of things I want to say and some how none of them do how I feel justice or would make people feel bad so BLAH! that is it. You can leave now.

Love life = merde

Sat, 30 May 2009 06:15:26 GMT

Right now I feel very sick of being wrong. I think, suprise, I was wrong again about love. I really suck at this when I am involved with the equation. I feel kind of, well okai, really shitty. It is like first yeah you are to nerdy and lame and now I assumed a lot more than was there. It is that really painful situation when you think there is something and then you realize how stupid you were. Well damn, time to go and hang out with the guy this all revolves around and his friends. Yes apparently I like this novacaine like numbness.

Cheers to love.

Current Mood: Punch myself in the face

Fri, 29 May 2009 22:22:00 GMT

I don't know what to say to anything that has happened today. I just want to punch myself in the face. Also if you are ever feeling really crappy about yourself don't drive. So yeah, woo. Anyway, ciao *runs away*

Thing I hate the most...

Mon, 18 May 2009 14:22:53 GMT

not knowing. It kills me on the inside and I haven't slept in two days because of all the things I don't have answers to. I just want to know yes or no? How much? How little? Why me? Why not me? Where? Can you? Can't you? Do people understand at all or am just the one who gets left behind?

I think the problem is: I am sick of responses and I want answers to all these question in every context that they exist within in my life. At this point people keep creating so many variables that I can't do anything but wait for them and they don't give a rtsss about what it is doing to me. This brings up the scariest questions of all: who are these people? Can I even call them family and friends? Well, I will just keep planning for the worst and it has made me so cynical that I am afraid to show my face to friends, I am so afraid I will loose them. Alas I am the madcap harlequin. One must live in the role they casted themselves as, I guess.

Please: Oh no. Is it me? I apologize. comments. I hate those it just makes me feel guilty and you feel like you executed your unnecessary revenge.

Cheers to me, the cynic.

So maybe...

Fri, 08 May 2009 23:46:16 GMT

I am not over our friendship and maybe I need to get over it. At least I am not going to cry this time.

Reality or Fantasy?

Tue, 05 May 2009 23:17:54 GMT

Work starts soon. I do not know what to say right now. I feel odd, like my world is crashing down but I am seeing things. All this debris is in my head and I have to be daydreaming. So which is it, reality or fantasy? Who knows, eh?

Cheers to this strange feeling.

Update

Mon, 04 May 2009 22:55:25 GMT

So it has been a while no? Let's see how can I summarize everything that has happened...

Sakura-con/ Seattle was amazing, like wow, amazing. Everything was perfect. I think I can not pick a favorite moment; so ask me about specifics if you want them.

School, oh school. It has been fun, suprisingly. Lots and lots of learning and essays. Phew in this past few weeks I have raked in another 5 A's on varied papers from classes. I just got one on my psych paper. Finals are approaching. Next Friday is my first final. So cheers.

Fencing, yes, it gets its own bullet. Fantastic I have started fencing against guys and winning or if loosing barely. Ah yes, they are also cancelling the fencing class. No worries, I am now president and founder of the Fencing Club. Here we go again, eh? So busy on that end.

Fanime is right around the corner. Half of my fencing class is going. YEAH!!!

Heart is being mended. Seeing as I haven't posted it means I haven't mentioned this guy flat out told me we could never date because I am too much of a nerd. Dating wasn't even on the table yet and to have that said to you is like... ugh.

So life has had its up and downs but I am doing well.

Cheers.

Next Week...

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 19:36:11 GMT

at this time ...I will be in Seatle. HOPLY CRAP!!! I am excited. LALALALALALA!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I mean like wow! Can''t wait, can't wait!!!

Well enough of that silly nonsense. I am now going to Home Depot to look at colors for my room!